beginning of the end

just wrapped up Guys & Dolls. On to the next show. It's bittersweet to be done with it. I will enjoy having more time...for what? Working, I guess. I need need need money.


I just now realized that this really is the beginning of then end of my high school chapter. I graduate in less than two months. Prom is in a month. The senior show is also in a month. I need to make lots of money, even though I just quit my job. However, I have an interview at the Country Club next to my house tomorrow.

Sigh. I'm ready for this summer.

mental health day #2

today is the second day i've stayed home ill. my mind is racing, my head hurts, and i'm tremendously sad right now. My situation with Dimitri is making me very sad and confused. I've learned that staying in bed all day doesn't really help me feel better. On the contrary, it actually makes me feel slightly worse.

What I dreamt last night:

Strangle
To dream that you or someone else is being strangled, denotes that you are repressing or denying a vital aspect of your expression.

i'm fixing a hole

what i've been wearing lately


3/3/10


3/4/10


3/10/10


My life has been so crazy lately. I have found songs I'm in love with, and I've experienced some beautiful moments this past weekend. I've had delightful conversations, eaten good food, and got so pleasantly drunk on Saturday night that I said, "I'm so happy right now I could die."

I'm looking terribly forward to the future. I will be attending an all arts university in Philadelphia, surrounded by enthralling people who aren't afraid to dress strangely.

Things that are currently bothering me:

• my "relationship"
• my inability to find my nude bra
• my weight
  

i can breathe again

what i wore last thursday

So far in my life...

• my college auditions are done. yes!
• i want to go to the University of the Arts so badly, but i think i fucked up my audition
• last night was State Patty's day, and it was epic.
• i've gained two pounds, and they won't go away
• i conquered the King of Prussia mall, and got tons of new clothes
• the waiting period begins for college letters. ughh.

valetine's

What I bought over the weekend:










I had my Rutgers audition on Saturday, and now I'm over analyzing the shit out of it. Christ, I just want to go there so badly.

I became very ill on the way home, and I'm still feeling a bit under the weather.

I saw Casablanca for the first time today on the big screen. It was mesmerizing.

what I like about myself

• my blue eyes, and how well I am at playing them up
• my shape. I have an hour glass figure, and though I do wish I was smaller, I have learned embrace my curves.
  
• my natural ability to make new friends
• the shape of my lips
• my sense of humor
• my determination to get whatever I want
• my mind
• my creativity
• my ability to see beauty in everything
• my sense of style
• the luck i have to stumble across lovely films and music
• my ballsy attitude
• the way i can laugh at myself
• my sensitivity (although this is something i also don't like about myself)
  

je veux ton amour, et je veux ta revenge

Today, January the 6th, I...
- wore a kick-ass outfit. as seen above.
- got a lot of psychology work done.
- met a boy I think I like.

All in all, good day.


Also, I can't stop listening to Move (Metronomy Remix by CSS.

drunken times in 2009

2009 was the year I began going slightly wild. I drank some, and I smoked more. From Summer to now, I've been living for the weekends with my favorite people so we can get completely fucked up. There's something so glorious about the feeling you get when you're high as a kite.

Also, for some reason I'm much more attractive when I'm in that state. I know this because I hook up with really gorgeous people when I'm partying. Maybe that's because they're drunk too. I don't know, but it makes me feel like a femme fatale.

Awkwardly enough though, I'm usually the one who has the carry around the drunk people and take care of them when they're throwing up all over the carpet. Not my favorite job, but I like to make sure at least one person is in control.


Hopefully 2010 will bring more lovely times like the ones i've had.